time to reflect myself
I can't stop feeling like an assh-hole when i looked back at my chat logs and emails XD It feels so stupid and ridiculous. lol. Somehow i feel like: Why the hell did i said that?. the feelings of lameness and stupidness. but now, a changed lady :) I can't believe I actually added 'zzz' or 'xxx' into my 'lah' or my 'bah' or anything that 'looked nice' to add those 'zzz' and 'xxx'. lol. for example: i love you barhxxxzzz. -__- when i reread it, i can't stop laughing XD funny right? to those who aren't into cinabangs :P my life was fell apart last year, of some stupid-selfish-lame reasons. when i read back the emails and chat logs, I somehow regretted of what i said. i mean like, i don't actually think i did anything wrong, i think. lol plus i don't think saying sorry and then say 'i don't think you will forgive me', these words will make any changes in those relationships what, right? if you are mature, you know how to handle it. I should have said something like: I don't give a shit, bastard! XD HAHAAH nah. it's over anyway. feels so good. now it's my awesome fabulous sleepy party life :) oh ya, back to the other messed up life, erm yeah, it feels so stupid. Little O' Me is gone babeh! :D time to have FUN!! I already did, but time to have more fun :D
